Week 4 – sometimes life gets in the way

This week was a very strange week. It started out on a pretty good note but quickly tried to go sour. I guess I expected this as things have been going pretty well since beginning the MKMMA program. I’ve had some mental breakthroughs and broken through some barriers that have been holding me back. On the whole, I’ve felt more alive and engaged in my life.

I’ve even noticed that my 3 year old son has been behaving better. I suppose that is in part due to the fact that kids are like dogs in the sense that they have a 6th sense and they can feel your emotions. Since he has felt me feeling better he is more settled.

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My business is even improving and I’m not directly involved in an MLM business. I’m in the service/healthcare industry and dealing with people talking about their pain and problems all day is very taxing on a PMA. But it has been remarkable at how the universe/God is providing opportunities for me to use my gifts in order to accomplish my PPN’s.

But the problem I’ve run into this week is I’ve felt pretty burnt out with everything I’ve had on my plate. So admittedly, I took a step back this week. I haven’t been diligent with my homework and I’m starting to feel it. I suppose recognizing my abilities and expressing my PPN’s of autonomy and liberty have me recognizing that it’s ok for me to have the freedom to just tell myself it’s ok to do what I want when I want and when I feel like I need a break from the responsibilities that drain me.

Now that I feel like I have my feet back under me, I’m ready to hit the ground running. Have a great week everyone.

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Week 3 – The Dawn of a New Day

When this whole process started, like a lot of people, I was a little skeptical about the program to say the least. Now understand that approximately 12 years ago, I first picked up Napolean Hill’s “Think and Grow Rich” and Og’s “The Greatest Salesman in the World” but apparently the student was not ready for the teacher. I read them both cover to cover. I completed them in a little over a week and for me, that was a pretty bid feat.

Numerous times over the last 12 years, I would pick up Mandino’s work and attempt to start the scrolls but it always ended the same. I’d read for a few days and then life would get in the way and I would taper off until I just stopped reading them entirely. So when I started this time, I thought long and hard before committing to the process. I made up my mind that I would keep my promises to myself and start fresh with a new internal attitude and picture of the person I wanted, the person I needed to be.

I won’t say it’s been easy, cause it hasn’t. With all of the obligations I committed to over the last 2 months and the sudden down turn of my business, there have been plenty of opportunities for me to fall back into the same patterns of doubt and self-pity. It has been extremely difficult and even though someone told me there would be school shock, no one told me there would be school shock on top of trying to rescue a business that was in financial ICU AND if that wasn’t enough, I was in the middle of an epic battle with God over why he was punishing me when there were other “Christians” not living a Christian life but were having success in their businesses.

Before I really knew what was happening, the battle began to settle down and the clouds began to clear. The business was downgraded from critical to stable and ideas began to flow. Now 3 weeks in to the MKMMA experience and a new day is dawning. Things are starting to happen and not only are things getting better, they are showing signs of a dramatic turn around. I can’t yet say it is all due to the MKMMA but it has certainly forced a quantum leap forward from where I thought or expected to be. I am extremely excited to see where things go from here.

Until next time…

Week 2 – The Law of Circulation

This week was a little more challenging to keep up with all my assignments.  I don’t know if I mentioned in my last post that I’m  testing the limits of my ability to juggle multiple items at once that just a few weeks ago would have overwhelmed me.

Among other things, one of the things that gave me the added boost that I needed was that I noticed things beginning to turn around.  Before I explain what I mean by turning around, lets take a stroll around my week…

I started this week with what we thought was a black cloud looming over it.  Crazy schedules, less than ideal financial issues at work and home and a MAJOR event that I expect to have a massive boost to my business…and that was just Monday through Wednesday.

Sometime Tuesday, I felt a shift in my consciousness.  This shift occurred prior to the revision of my DMP (Definite Major Purpose) where during the process, that mysterious part of my mind that never sleeps led me to the “Law of Circulation”.

The law of circulation states that all things in the universe are always flowing in circulation but at an ever expanding rate. What you give to one person, you will receive from a different source. So you don’t have to give with the expectation of receiving back from the same person you give to, but knowing that it will definitely come back to you multiplied from other sources. It works according to the law of cause and effect where the universe always mirrors back to you whatever you do.

If you’re like me, you’ve heard a version of this in many, many different flavors.  But for some reason, it resonated differently with me this time.  It spoke to me.  It caused me to begin treating the patients in my office differently.  It caused me to treat people that we met at the event on Wednesday differently.  My heart and my ears were open.  I actually heard people telling me what I needed to hear in order for me to help them.

These types of things happened all week.  I could feel the magnetic pull of the world within upon the world without and I can’t wait to see what the coming weeks will bring.

Week 1 – Spring Cleaning in September

Over the last few weeks, I began a journey of getting the old me back.  I began looking at my life and wondering, “what has happened to me that I deserve all of this”.  I’m sure I’m not the only one that has had this thought cross their mind and like most of you, you probably felt like someone or something was punishing you for some wrong doing that you couldn’t remember.

It wasn’t until I returned from a family vacation that I started asking better questions because the truth of the matter is that no one is punishing me.  No one is standing over me with a magnifying glass trying to burn me like we all did to the ant hill in our front yard growing up.  What is happening is that we are being disciplined, molded if you will for something greater or we are on the wrong path.  God does this when we aren’t being fruitful.  He prunes us like a grape vine when our branches aren’t bearing fruit.

This realization helped me tremendously.

From that a light bulb came on for me, I have begun a journey of cleaning out the junk that had me believing that the way my life was heading was out of my control when in reality, I never really had any control in the first place.  The only thing I have control over is my thoughts.  Now it just so happened that all at the same time, 3 very important things began to happen right around the time that this change in my gray matter began.   I started a small group bible study at my church and began the crown financial program, also in my church, but then this thing called the Master Key Mastermind Alliance just mysteriously appeared on my Facebook page that invited me to go watch a video and learn how to turn my life around.  More on that in future posts to this blog.  Here is the thing that really sunk it home for me…

The 2 – 3 months leading up to the commencement of the above events, I grew more and more angry at everything.  The slightest little thing would set me off and get my blood pressure boiling.  Then one by one, “3” things fell across the path I was on like trees in a thunderstorm blocking my path.  Now there is some significance for me with the fact that it was “3” things – The Holy Trinity, the notion that good luck and bad come in 3’s, etc.  This makes it more than happenstance.  This was God intervening in my life and providing for me the tools I needed to get my life in order and bring myself out of this pit that I was sinking into day by day.

The biggest struggle for me has been time management and finding time to get everything done that was being asked of me.  Then I see this on Facebook:

Imagine there is a bank account that credits your account each morning with $86,400. It carries over no balance from day to day.
Every evening the bank deletes whatever part of the balance you failed to use during the day. What would you do? Draw out every cent, of course?
Each of us has such a bank. Its name is TIME.
Every morning, it credits you with 86,400 seconds.
Every night it writes off, as lost, whatever of this you have failed to invest to a good purpose.
It carries over no balance. It allows no overdraft. Each day it opens a new account for you. Each night it burns the remains of the day.
If you fail to use the day’s deposits, the loss is yours. There is no drawing against “tomorrow.”
You must live in the present on today’s deposits. Invest it so as to get from it the utmost in health, happiness and success!
The clock is running!! Make the most of today.

To realize the value of ONE YEAR, ask a student who failed a grade.

To realize the value of ONE MONTH, ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.

To realize the value of ONE WEEK, ask the editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize the value of ONE HOUR, ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realize the value of ONE MINUTE, ask a person who just missed a train.

To realize the value of ONE SECOND, ask someone who just avoided an accident.

To realize the value of ONE MILLISECOND, ask the person who won a silver medal at the Olympics.

Treasure every moment that you have! And treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time with. And remember time waits for no one.

It seems as if things are already moving in the right direction.  It makes me excited to see what the future brings or more accurately, what I create in the future by training my thoughts and developing new good habits.

Until next time…